WOW what in the world happened.  It's already September... I seriously feel like  I just graduated yesterday. 

So I was talking to ktgong, and she was like... did you know your brother has a xanga?! and I was like... yes... then i started reading up on everyone's posts for the past 4-5 months and I realized that it actually is september.  thats like 5 months since my last post.  ??? yeah.  went by incredibly fast.

ok enough with the shock. 

I don't even know how to put into words what has been up with me.  well... i know how to put it into words, but it would take like forever and a day to try to process it all.  I took an internship with the fcbc youth group this summer.  I don't even remember how i decided, or when i decided... i just remember that all of the sudden i was in pastor's office saying "yeah, that sounds good to me, see you next tuesday."  ???... yeah.

BUT, it was an amazing summer.  I don't know how God did it, but He was amazing as usual... I'm always so amazed.  crazy crazy... =) 

It was also amazing how many college kids decided to help out this summer... I'm so thankful for all of them, and I'm still SO excited that i got to get to know them and hang out with them this summer.  It's weird because like... my year and the one above me and below me have like... one or 2 people in them each at church.  and so we never really hung out a lot after high school.  the past couple months i got to know the people a couple years below me and it was pretty great to see how much they've grown at their respective colleges... pretty amazing... especially since i've known some of them for like 5+ years and then others for like 20 years... haha... they are pretty fun to hang out with, i must say.

So the internship was great, and working with pastor and david was great too... i'm so happy that david was the other intern, he understood my faces when i looked at him during meeting with pastor while we were... telling our ... bible stories... yeeeuh... =)

So the internship was over middle of August... but then... I got asked to stay on? so i'm thinking yes ok continue the internship... NOT (sorta).  pastor called me a 'part time youth director'. i don't really know how its different from an intern except that i have to do all the stuff that david and i did with the other dozen small group leaders this summer.. by ... myself? sorta.  not by myself... just more by myself then in the summer.  i don't know. its fun... so far.  still. sorta. i got really stressed out the first friday that the college group was gone.  it was like ridiculous.  i miss them a lot.  its getting better though.  I'm realizing that this is what happens every fall, and i just haven't been there the past 4 years to see it.  its a little ridiculous how we have all this help in the summer, and then BAM. no one. you have to start all over again. and it hits you like an 18wheeler. well at least it hit me that hard because I haven't seen it before.  I looked at my parents and kai and janice and they were like... *shrug*... this happens every fall.  i looked back at them and i was like.. OMG i'm sorry...

I don't know.  I know God will do His amazing thing again, and at the end of the school year when I have time to stop and look back on it, I will continue to be amazed... just in the moment its so easy to be human and be stressed out like a mad woman... =)

Thats it for now i think... OH WAIT.  the house! the house we moved into is amazing.  its my parents old house... that i lived in till i was 8 years old.  and we made it look not old... and sweetie (the dog) lives here with me.  and analeasa (the love of my life.. see previous post) and pheobe (the dog) and we just got a new roommate and her name is chelsea.  and we are a very diverse house.  brown, yellow, and white.  we should write a song... haha its good.  everyone should come visit.  but tell me before you decide to come over.  =P

on a different note,  in november brandon and i will celebrate our 4 year anniversary.  FOUR... YEARS.  holy goodness... haha...  i love you, brandon gee.  =P (HEY look i said it out loud for the internet people to see... AND it counts double because my siblings have xanga!... hehe)

OH AND... utsa is soooooooo different.  sooooooo not white... and soooooo much bigger. i was in culture shock the first day.  i'm so not use to it.  but its good. and the classes i think look like they should be okay.  i hope.

ok, the end, for now.  perhaps i will put together a more... thoughtful... post... later.  maybe. i was thinking i might want to spill my guts on my experiences with college campus fellowships... etc. ;)  now that i'm out of the situation more so then i was the past couple years... that post would be fun, wouldnt it? i might have to edit that one like 10 times before i post it for real... hehe...

AND NOW (yes i know i said the end, but i've been adding to this post for the last 2 hours)... a photo recap from graduation to now...ish... enjoy.

  graduation...

we did not plan to match. but isnt it cute that we did? =)

austin

my/katie's small group

Brandon's birthday 

new room/house

june sometime in SA

john drawing a goate

retreat

picnic

dumpling party

the college group

new friend w/o goate looks like he's 12 =P ...JK

schlitterbahn

fajita night

  picture messer upper aka brandon gee

Only 4 papers, and 2 tests stand between me and graduation.

Ok, thats a lot of stuff. but there's only 12 days of classes left!

YESSSSS. ALMOST THERE.

I guess now is the time where I should talk about how amazing my college experience was and how much I will miss it.  I duno if I would actually pick those words.  But, dear trinity, you were pretty okay to me.  and the people i've made friends with and come across have taught me a lot. 

I am so excited to be doing something different after i graduate from trinity.  well not too different.  UTSA prereqs and applying to dental hygiene still counts as going to school, but i wont be living with my parents... i will be living with the love of my life... analeasa! haha jk. sorta. and i'll be working a real job (sorta, if you count substitute teaching as real) for the first time in my life... sorta. haha.

new enviroment. new place. new things to do. EXCITEMENT!

i wish i could skip the papers and tests and go straight to may 17th after graduation.

hello again. 

i moved in late yet again.  6pm the day before classes started.  yesss i think i set a new record.

i'm a senior. whoa baby. freakin crazy.

i love jocelyn, but i miss analeasa... analeasa?!?! where are you?!?! come play with meeee! come drink the stuff in my fridge with meee!!! ... bwahahaha...

i dont like school.  still. i want to quit... no... i dont want to quit i just want to finish. with a good gpa or a decent one... or one not lower then it is now... haha.

i've decided to stop saying that i'm "feeling anti-social this semester".  I've come to terms with the fact that anit-social is the theme of my life.  or at least its one of the main themes of my life.  ok let me help you understand what i'm trying to say... if my life was a song, then 'anti-social' would be a major part of the theme.  of course there would be other parts of the theme... such as God, family, and a few friends.  BUT none the less, anti-social would be a part of the theme... ok fine maybe it would be the "B" theme... but a very prominant B theme. haha. ok that was pretty stupid.  sorry guys... did i mention i am a music major?...

ok.  just move forward.  we all struggle with forward motion... whooooa-oh... haha

oh ps. i miss jenny and brandon... come back and play with us!! like every weekend!... till i graduate!!! ... ok i know that wont happen but... i still wish it would.

hello.

school starts thursday and i havent moved in. hehe...

nathan has a xanga. what has the world come to. 

meagan is old and in high school.  everyone comes home smelling like marching band.

roomie stole milk.

ktgong is not as swollen but i havent seen her... yet. 

i dont want to go to school. i want to graduate.

and then i found fourty dollars. 

the end...